Wednesday, April 12, 2006


Acceptance. The word is defined as follows:


n 1: the mental attitude that something is believable and should be accepted as true; "he gave credence to the gossip"; "acceptance of Newtonian mechanics was unquestioned for 200 years" [syn: credence] 2: the act of accepting with approval; favorable reception; "its adoption by society"; "the proposal found wide acceptance" [syn: adoption, acceptation, espousal] 3: the state of being acceptable and accepted; "torn jeans received no acceptance at the country club" [ant: rejection] 4: (contract law) words signifying consent to the terms of an offer (thereby creating a contract) 5: banking: a time draft drawn on and accepted by a bank [syn: banker's acceptance] 6: a disposition to tolerate or accept people or situations; "all people should practice toleration and live together in peace" [syn: toleration, sufferance] 7: the act of taking something that is offered; "her acceptance of the gift encouraged him"; "he anticipated their acceptance of his offer"

#6 seems to be where I am right now. I have accepted and resigned myself to working again. Now, I know I am fortunate because I truly love my job. I love what I do everyday and work with and for some wonderful people. I really don't like what I feel I am missing. I had just started to feel like I was beginning to schedule more effectively, make some real progress with my home and housekeeping, spending more time with each of my children on an individual level including time at their schools, and starting to spend some time on myself (I know, I can hear you all gasping now). I have watched all of this disappear. Some of it gradually and some of it immediately. I don't like that, but after 5 months I believe I have now accepted it. The anger and resentment is less than it was even a few weeks ago. This is an improvement. It was only Monday that it dawned on me that I had reached this point. Perhaps I will advance to the next step (whatever it may be) and perhaps I won't. Not being angry all the time is nice.

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